我想大声宣布 对你依依不舍,
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀..
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害?

Can love not hurt?
I just started this blog today.

I dont know how i should feel.
Should i feel sad?
Sad, i felt alot of that in this relationship.
Should i feel relieved?
Relieved, well maybe.
But relieved also means, its end of everything.
Actually i have a bit of everything.
So im still alright.
WOW to me, first time i felt so relieved after a break-up.


Maybe i have all the burdens lifted.
All my worries, all my complains.
It had been a wonderful experience, you are a good guy actually.
But, i guess we haven mature enough to understand how to control our emotions.
So everything resulted in a crush after minute incidents.
I dont know if you will regret, but i will definately remember.
Remember all the good times and bad times.
To me this relationship is precious.
Theres no hatred, no grudge, no negative stuff.
So, this relationship is considered semi-perfect.

I told you before, i fear one day...
I cant bake with you anymore.
I cant lie on your bed and watch tv with you anymore.
There are alot of things we do together.
I came crying to you, saying i fear we couldnt do them anymore.
And my instincts are right.
We really cant do them anymore.
You said, you suddenly dont love me anymore.
I dont blame you actually.
I have loved you less too, honestly.
We're still young.
We dont have children as our burden or excuse.
There is always space for us to back out.
Maybe thats for the better.

At least now i dont have to find myself crying when im sleeping.
Or i dont have to wait like an idiot for you to message me day and night.
But i definately misses your voice.
There things i still couldnt get used to.
But i swear to myself, next time i will never ever be a girl who rely on her boyfriend too much.
I rather be strong myself.
Its too hard, just too hard to rely on someone.

I cried, i cried so hard when you sent me that 'you-know-i-want-to-break-up' message.
But in the end, im glad i can talk to you properly in a stable tone.
Find out what is going on in your mind.
But is there really just this way to solve?
I dont know.
I still wish to talk to you, i still wish to see you.
But is that possible anymore?
I dont know too.

But at the end of the day.
I thank you for this relationship.
I enjoyed every happy moment.
Im so glad i once had you.
If you could give this relationship another chance.
I will always be at the other end of the bridge.

Today is our 8th month anniversary.
And we are on our seperate ways already.

Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

I HAD GOT SO MUCH WANTS~
Since its xmas soon.
I shall hope santa bring me THOSE!!!!

• A book of Signed cheque [so i can write any amount i want onto it. I'll be a wealthy pigu neh.]
• The whole carrefour. [so that i can just take whatever i need from there. >.<]
• Many many cars [ooops, maybe my license first.]
• Magical gloves [so that when i wear it, i can whip up delicious food.]
• Travelator to every shopping mall from my house. [public transport is a pain.]

The list goes on hor~~~~
Now, for something within my reach in near future.

• More time with my Bibi [that will be after feb 2009, Bibi has too much work end 2008. T.T]
• No more flabbiness [hello. I didnt say that, Bibi said it. T.T]
• Gain weight and shape [im doing something bout it now. phew~]
• Burberry wallet [i've been eyeing. but my wallet haben spoil yet~~~]
• Burberry shirt/polo/tshirt for Bibi [i've been eyeing too. im waiting for the chance]
• Heels!!! LOADS OF THEM [i say....us ladies wont grumble if theres one extra pair of heels]
• Food~~~~[nice, cheap, filling. i think im hungry 24/7]
• A ring [mummy promised one for my birthday, but you know thats not what i want.]
• New specs [i dont like my specs now. i want change change change.]
• New school [im done sticking to that school.]
• Overseas with Bibi [since when did i start saying this?]
• My own home. [Maybe i shouldnt include this here hor, but aiya..lazy to change a section >.<]

Ahhh, this list goes on too.
Why i stop wor.
Cause Bibi told me yesterday that 11pm is my bedtime.
So im going to bed.
BYEBYE!!!!

Bibi drive with care aiight~
I love you~

Sweat it out man.
I stink now.

不知哪来的积极，
我突然想做个运动。
在房里操了半小时，
我已经上气不接下气了。
我的妈呀！

怎么会有那么多的食物呢？
每天每天我都吃好多好多。
又喝奶粉，又吃饭，又要喝黑糖水。
早餐就不用算了，因为我每天都两点才起身。
午餐，饭，菜，奶粉，水果。
下午茶，面包啦，饼干啦，水果啦，零嘴啦，数不完耶。
晚餐，饭，菜，水果，奶粉。
我突然觉得好饱哦。
可是就是停不下来。
我好想睡觉。。。。

在家好无聊，
不想做工，
好想花钱。
哈哈哈哈。

我一直一直在提醒我自己，
够了，够了，已经很够了。
我发觉我的占有欲好强哦。
快乐的时间是很快就过去的，
好啦，明天你又要去上班啦。
我又在家一整天啦。
可是就是会有不断的思念。
终于，假日来了。
好开心啊！！！
可是快乐的时间又是很快就过去的。
哎哟，好复杂的心情。

试着去了解你繁忙的工作。
试着去体谅。
试着不去想寂寞。
真的，可以开心一点。
每天晚上，你一回到家。
我的嘴角就会微翘起来。
心情真好。
不断对你说开心的话。
迫不期待的跟你讲好多好多话。
但又担心你累了。
你会觉得我很烦，
一整天工作下来已经很累了。
回到家还要听你这丫头唧唧咋咋讲个不停。
因该会累吧。
啊！要控制我自己啊！
不过，最终还是要看到你高兴。
笑笑。

牵就是好事吗？
本来好强的心态呢？
原来人是会变的。
是好是坏啊？
个人的看法吧。
我呢，很高兴啊。
虽然你不是一个很会表示自己的人，
叫我宝贝的次数也变得少之又少。
可是，爱在心中。
爱人自然也会感觉得到吧。
就算是那么的一点点。

想念装可爱的你。
要知道我爱你哦。

Hungry but full` Yang ah bi's unsightly 'YOGA' moves.