我想大声宣布 对你依依不舍,
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀..
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害?

Can love not hurt?
I just started this blog today.

I dont know how i should feel.
Should i feel sad?
Sad, i felt alot of that in this relationship.
Should i feel relieved?
Relieved, well maybe.
But relieved also means, its end of everything.
Actually i have a bit of everything.
So im still alright.
WOW to me, first time i felt so relieved after a break-up.


Maybe i have all the burdens lifted.
All my worries, all my complains.
It had been a wonderful experience, you are a good guy actually.
But, i guess we haven mature enough to understand how to control our emotions.
So everything resulted in a crush after minute incidents.
I dont know if you will regret, but i will definately remember.
Remember all the good times and bad times.
To me this relationship is precious.
Theres no hatred, no grudge, no negative stuff.
So, this relationship is considered semi-perfect.

I told you before, i fear one day...
I cant bake with you anymore.
I cant lie on your bed and watch tv with you anymore.
There are alot of things we do together.
I came crying to you, saying i fear we couldnt do them anymore.
And my instincts are right.
We really cant do them anymore.
You said, you suddenly dont love me anymore.
I dont blame you actually.
I have loved you less too, honestly.
We're still young.
We dont have children as our burden or excuse.
There is always space for us to back out.
Maybe thats for the better.

At least now i dont have to find myself crying when im sleeping.
Or i dont have to wait like an idiot for you to message me day and night.
But i definately misses your voice.
There things i still couldnt get used to.
But i swear to myself, next time i will never ever be a girl who rely on her boyfriend too much.
I rather be strong myself.
Its too hard, just too hard to rely on someone.

I cried, i cried so hard when you sent me that 'you-know-i-want-to-break-up' message.
But in the end, im glad i can talk to you properly in a stable tone.
Find out what is going on in your mind.
But is there really just this way to solve?
I dont know.
I still wish to talk to you, i still wish to see you.
But is that possible anymore?
I dont know too.

But at the end of the day.
I thank you for this relationship.
I enjoyed every happy moment.
Im so glad i once had you.
If you could give this relationship another chance.
I will always be at the other end of the bridge.

Today is our 8th month anniversary.
And we are on our seperate ways already.

Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

I HAD GOT SO MUCH WANTS~
Since its xmas soon.
I shall hope santa bring me THOSE!!!!

• A book of Signed cheque [so i can write any amount i want onto it. I'll be a wealthy pigu neh.]
• The whole carrefour. [so that i can just take whatever i need from there. >.<]
• Many many cars [ooops, maybe my license first.]
• Magical gloves [so that when i wear it, i can whip up delicious food.]
• Travelator to every shopping mall from my house. [public transport is a pain.]

The list goes on hor~~~~
Now, for something within my reach in near future.

• More time with my Bibi [that will be after feb 2009, Bibi has too much work end 2008. T.T]
• No more flabbiness [hello. I didnt say that, Bibi said it. T.T]
• Gain weight and shape [im doing something bout it now. phew~]
• Burberry wallet [i've been eyeing. but my wallet haben spoil yet~~~]
• Burberry shirt/polo/tshirt for Bibi [i've been eyeing too. im waiting for the chance]
• Heels!!! LOADS OF THEM [i say....us ladies wont grumble if theres one extra pair of heels]
• Food~~~~[nice, cheap, filling. i think im hungry 24/7]
• A ring [mummy promised one for my birthday, but you know thats not what i want.]
• New specs [i dont like my specs now. i want change change change.]
• New school [im done sticking to that school.]
• Overseas with Bibi [since when did i start saying this?]
• My own home. [Maybe i shouldnt include this here hor, but aiya..lazy to change a section >.<]

Ahhh, this list goes on too.
Why i stop wor.
Cause Bibi told me yesterday that 11pm is my bedtime.
So im going to bed.
BYEBYE!!!!

Bibi drive with care aiight~
I love you~

Sweat it out man.
I stink now.

不知哪来的积极，
我突然想做个运动。
在房里操了半小时，
我已经上气不接下气了。
我的妈呀！

怎么会有那么多的食物呢？
每天每天我都吃好多好多。
又喝奶粉，又吃饭，又要喝黑糖水。
早餐就不用算了，因为我每天都两点才起身。
午餐，饭，菜，奶粉，水果。
下午茶，面包啦，饼干啦，水果啦，零嘴啦，数不完耶。
晚餐，饭，菜，水果，奶粉。
我突然觉得好饱哦。
可是就是停不下来。
我好想睡觉。。。。

在家好无聊，
不想做工，
好想花钱。
哈哈哈哈。

我一直一直在提醒我自己，
够了，够了，已经很够了。
我发觉我的占有欲好强哦。
快乐的时间是很快就过去的，
好啦，明天你又要去上班啦。
我又在家一整天啦。
可是就是会有不断的思念。
终于，假日来了。
好开心啊！！！
可是快乐的时间又是很快就过去的。
哎哟，好复杂的心情。

试着去了解你繁忙的工作。
试着去体谅。
试着不去想寂寞。
真的，可以开心一点。
每天晚上，你一回到家。
我的嘴角就会微翘起来。
心情真好。
不断对你说开心的话。
迫不期待的跟你讲好多好多话。
但又担心你累了。
你会觉得我很烦，
一整天工作下来已经很累了。
回到家还要听你这丫头唧唧咋咋讲个不停。
因该会累吧。
啊！要控制我自己啊！
不过，最终还是要看到你高兴。
笑笑。

牵就是好事吗？
本来好强的心态呢？
原来人是会变的。
是好是坏啊？
个人的看法吧。
我呢，很高兴啊。
虽然你不是一个很会表示自己的人，
叫我宝贝的次数也变得少之又少。
可是，爱在心中。
爱人自然也会感觉得到吧。
就算是那么的一点点。

想念装可爱的你。
要知道我爱你哦。

Hungry but full` Yang ah bi's unsightly 'YOGA' moves.

I felt better.
Well, at least now i know email really aint the BEST way to send out invitations.
Next year i shall try postal.
People!!! CHECK YOUR EMAIL NAHH.
It made me sad nehh.
HAHAHA!

I ate ice cream JUST now.
Now i feel sleepy.
And my tummy bit achy.
I think my menses is coming.
Awww, i hate it.

Baby sayang me please.
Bibi dont like people dancing.
Cause it also means he had to go back late.
HAHHAHAHAA!
So naughty of him.
But i still love you so much~
MUACKS.

Now for some pictures.

Online shopping today.
Awww, so many things i wish to buy.
New year is coming~~~Yay!!!
Can go shop for new year clothes lo.
And and, there are so many things i hope to buy for Bibi also.
I will start thinking, waaa, bibi wear this sure nice, wear that also nice.
Awww.

Bibi was just saying yesterday,
Though he had a wishlist but he will still choose to save up the money cause of recession.
Awww, Bibi i think i cant be as discipline as you are.
After i graduate i will find a job le ba.
This 3 weeks im just restless LAR.
OHHH!!!
START DOING MY PJMS AND PR PROJECT.

Ya, im starting to feel bit useless at home ledi.
Eat, sleep, slack, watch tv.....
Uh oh~~~~~~

Blue berry muffin with LOVE
YAY~~~
Today i went to Bibi's place to bake muffin!
So cute lo, the muffins stick together one.
But they turned out to be FINE!
And yummy too~

I remember when it was my birthday..2008
Bibi baked the same muffin for me too.
I was so happy man~
First first first first time....
A man baked pastry for me.
I was so happy!!!

Awww, you did so much surprising things for me.
We quarrel and argue sometimes.
But i still love you as much.
Or, even more everytime.
Thank you sweety~

I had fun~ Waaa, imagine our pictures on exhibition!

I had fun~ I really will make this face to cats man~

Ahhhh!
I feel like dolling up myself today.
But im lazy.
So im still in bed.
Using my imagination to doll myself up.
HAHAHAHHAA!


Waaaa,
Sometimes, female leads in shows can be so enviable.
Gentleman serving them like nobody's business.
Pretty, elegant and sweet.
Why shows and reality has such huge difference?
I wish i was a princess too.
HAHAHAHA!
I guess thats every girl's dream huh.

I've been watching my lappy screen for more than 5 hours.
Im so tired~
Im gonna do some doddling.
BYE EE

Yumyum~ My milk powder.

Bibi say im getting more naggy~
T.T
I only say you young
Must you say im OLD?!!!!!
GRRRRR~
LAO AH MA ANGRY LEDI!!!!

Wahahahahhaha!
Ohoh, im happy~
Went to compass round 4plus today.
Walk around.
I went to borrow 2 recipe book!
1 for cakes and 1 for normal dishes.
Awwww, they all looked so yummy~
Since im so free during this holiday.
I shall make something nice for my bibi.
Bibi is working HARD~ this holidays.
So i shall reward him with 'good' food.
I try my best ya bibi~ >.<

Back to my compass trip~
After that we went walk walk again.
Maybe we can go join walkathon or something.
We walk SO much~
I bought my deodorant.
Bibi finally bought his 2009 notebook.
I found new game to buy.
HOHOHOHOHO.
Shhhhh, that got to wait.
Awwww, BUT I CANT WAIT!!!
ITS SO CUTE~
Oh, its some jappy game.
TEEHEE.
I saw the hotdog shop.
And i so wanted to eat that.
The smell of the hotdog.....
I can melt on the spot man.
So i practically ASSURED bibi that after i eat the hotdog bun, i can still have dinner.
So WAHAHAHAHAHA! I get to eat yummy hotdog.
Took bus and went home.
No car today, Bibi is so restless lo.
Jia you jia you!!!
If not muscles saggy!!!!!!
HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO.

Reached home, watch tv.
The show is damn funny lo.
That 7pm show on channel 8.
Laugh my way till dinner.
Sat down and...............

"Bibi im full....." i said.
"See see, ask you dont eat the hotdog ledi la. Still say can eat dinner de. NO PROBLEM~" he said.
"T.T okay........sorry la~ awww, bibi wont ever let me snack before dinner ledi." i said.
"OF COURSE~" he said.

AHHHHHH.
T.T
Anyway, FEAR NOT~
My milk powder is here ledi.
I asked mummy to buy the 'gain weight' powder for me.
Im gonna drink it after every meal.
IM GETTING FAT!!!
COOL MAN!!!

We had cereal this morning.
Honey STAR!
We poured the suppose-ly CHOCOLATE milk out and we have WHITE colour fluid.
WOW!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHA!
Anyway, we didnt care.
We still ate cereal like nobody's business.
We, namely Yang ah bi and me.
LOL.

I love my precious.
He lie on my lap this evening.
AND HE TICKLE ME!!!!!!
So naughty, so adorable, so loveable.
MUACKS.
Bibi is treating me to buffet.
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Im so so so so so happy~
Thank you bibi~
iloveyou.

I want a clam shell~
Grrrr.
Cant find any nice flippy.

Oh yeah~
I went out with Bibi yesterday.
We went to Marina, Suntec and Vivo.
Walk walk, walk walk,
Walk walk, walk walk,
Walk walk, walk walk,
Walk walk, walk walk,
Walk walk, walk walk,
Walk walk, walk walk,
Walk walk, walk walk,
From marina walk to suntec
From suntec walk back to marina, cause our car is there.
Then from Suntec drive to Vivo.

HOHOHOHO.
I GOT A NEW LONG SLEEVE FROM MANGO SALE~~~
35 bucks, SWEET!
And its purple colour,
Like my mood, its GAY!!!
Ohoh, and Bibi chose that colour.
HOHOHOHO.

I only bought 1 item that day.
Though im in a super shopping mood.
BUT I GOT NO MONEY AHHH!!!
Im stuck with the same problem again.
Dont wanna work, but want alot of money to splurge.
I still like esprit.
Im not warehouse type.
Bibi say im not yet forever 21 type.
HAHAHA!

Had supper at around 12plus.
Mummy called and say supper isnt the reason for coming home late.
Then, i got so puzzled.
If i eat supper at 7pm, is it still called supper?

Today, i got nothing to do.
So we're going to compass.
To walk around again.
HAHAHAHA!
Holiday's so bored.
School's also bored.
Uh huh~

p/s i got a boyfriend who loves going shopping with me. *grins*

Wahoooo~
Im watching Mars vs Venus again.
HOHOHOHOHOHOHO.
heh heh~
Woman say about 6000-8000 words a day.
While man, say about 2000-3000 words.
Whoooo.
Cool man.
No wonder when im with Bibi or when we're talking on the phone..
Im always the one rattling.

Was reading through a mummy's blog.
The baby is so cute~
Was so into it that i even dreamt bout it.
HAHAHA!
And i was doing facial that night.
So i dreamt that i went to the baby's place and do facial.
OMGGG.
Hilarious.

I had,
5 slices of bread today.
1 plate of fried beehoon.
1 cup of milo.
2 potions of ice cream. mummy bought ben jerry somemore.
1 bowl of rice.
2 bowls of soup.
1 big bowl of udon with soup, and i finish the soup.
1 cup of yakult.

Still quite okay right?
I heeding menses' advice neh.
Eat loads of carbo carbo.

ANYWAY!!!!
I HAD MY HOUSE DECORATED TODAY.


SO EXCITING~
Wahooo~
I'll be sending out invitation cards to whom i will be inviting.
Hmmm, maybe not invitation cards, maybe just email.
HAHAHAHHAA!
So be sure to check your email aiight!!!!

We'll be having turkey, ham and loads and loads of food on that day!
Wahooo~
So excited.
TEEHEE~

Neh neh,
Bibi is working now.
He dread....working.
I think.
HAHAHAHA!
Im SO BORED AHHHHH!!!!
BLEAH..............................

edit
Aiish.

Wahoo~ Our first picture.

Hihi,
Im feeling bit contridicting here.
Im so lazy i dont feel like working this holiday.
But im so greedy, i want to buy everything i like.
Plus, i have urge for good food.
What do you recommand then?

Awwwwwwwwwwwww.
I need a slack-ish part time job.
OH YA OH YA!!!
I BOUGHT A RING AND A PAIR OF EARRINGS TODAY.
WAHOOOOOO~
IM SO HAPPY!!!!

I shall upload the pictures on the next post.
;D
SMILE EEEE.
MY BIBI IS NOT HOME YET!
AHHHH, HE GOT BUFFET FOR 2 DAYS AHHHH.
NOT FAIR~
POUT~~~~

Refreshed.
Awww, so nice to shower at night.
Warm water on my body.
Cold wind on my face when i step out of shower.
Awww, complicated feeling.

I smell it, i smell it!!!
I SMELL CONSTRUCTION WORK UNDER MY BLOCK!
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!
Super high~

Phua came over to borrow backpack today.
Ended up watching anime till 10plus.
HOHOHOHO.
The power of anime.
HAHAHA!
Had fun had fun.
Yay heh~
Happy desu~

My anata is working today.
Morning till now.
Xin ku le neh~
Ai si ni le yo.
Let the power of my love refresh you~~~
HOHOHOHOHO.
MUACKS.

Im gonna watch anime now.
BYE EE~
1 more day to HOLIDAY~

Desu~ Dessert at Ice cube.

Desu~ Main band during practice.